Don’t You Forget About Me
So I’m sitting in bed burning the midnight oil on a school (work?) night jamming out to some oldies with a head full of thoughts that I can’t seem to put into words. Trying to write to clear my head, to express my thoughts, to have some sort of release, but frankly all I keep thinking about is how this is my first post in two months and I really don’t have much to say.
What a great comeback post, eh?
I’ve got another long day ahead of me tomorrow, but I couldn’t have gone another day without writing something. Something as pointless as I’m sure this post will end up being, but at least I’m writing again.
I can’t believe it’s been almost two months since I really wrote a post. I wish I could say I’ve been too busy, but that’s not the case. Sure, I’ve been on the go but there have been plenty of times where I had nothing to do for hours and couldn’t bring myself to even open my computer.
And I can’t say I haven’t had anything to write about because that just wouldn’t be true. It amazes me how much I discover about myself everyday. How life is constantly changing, throwing me curveballs and spinning me for a loop. I have so much to say, and yet no idea where to begin. Each post starts off with a brain dump full of word vomit, and once I get it out there I don’t seem to have any energy to try to piece what I was trying to say together.
Did that even make any sense? This may just be late night ramblings but, boy, does it feel good to let it out.
In my time away from writing, I feel like I’ve had a lot of time to reflect on who I was, who I am now, and who I want to become. Life is so short, it really does pass you by if you let it.
I don’t want to let it.
I want to embrace every moment, big or small. One of my favorite things about life is looking back at the things you thought to be small or insignificant at the time, and realize it was one of the big moments. Something that you would remember forever.
The unpredictability of life, it’s scary. The fear that creeps into your head: that you may never figure out this thing called life, that you may never accomplish your goals, follow your dreams, or find someone to spend your life with. It’s actually terrifying.
But it’s also amazing, and thrilling, and beautiful. And I don’t want to waste a single moment of it.
…Whoa, pretty heavy for a late night ramble. I guess listening to Spotify really brings out the philosopher in me?
Anyways, I’m back – for now. I may not be back 100% yet, but I’m slowly getting there. And more importantly, I’m off enjoying this beautiful journey called life and loving every minute of it. All I ask of you is to enjoy it too, and don’t give up on me just yet
And to all three of you who are still reading, thank you thank you thank you!
Now tell me, what have YOU been up to?