Weekend Blues
This weekend was full of a whirlwind of emotions. Living in Boston has truly been an amazing and life changing experience, one that I am so thankful for. And although it may be due to the dreary weather (I don’t think I’ll ever get used to winter in the Northeast), lately I’ve found myself more and more craving a change. I’m the type of person who doesn’t like to feel complacent – I like to be growing and moving and I happen to be one of those weird people who thrives off change.
Recently I’ve found myself feeling lonely and longing to be closer to my family and friends down south. This weekend I was in a funk and I felt, to put it simply, sad. I’ve felt a lot of things since moving to Boston, but sad is rarely one of them. I’ve been homesick, I’ve been upset, but I haven’t had these type of constant blues that seem to bring me down. Maybe it’s due to the holidays being over and Paul leaving, maybe it’s due to the fact I was sick last week, but recently all I’ve been thinking to myself is something’s got to change. I need something new.
But then I try to imagine leaving. I try to imagine packing up my things and moving somewhere new, without my best friend Grundy or my awesome roommates Kayla and Jay – and I can’t. I can’t picture not seeing them and having them as a part of my day to day life.
I’m pretty much full of contradictions.
Anyone else ever feel that way? Feel like you’ve gotten everything you could out of a position or a location, and want change but can’t imagine actually leaving? Just me? 
Anyways. I’m trying to sort through these feelings to figure out the next step for me and my future, whether it be a transfer to a new office or a change here in Boston. Something’s gotta give.
And that’s all on that. Pretty heavy stuff for a Monday morning, eh?
Onto happier things! Last week I finally received my be-lated Christmas present…
My Michael Kors purse!!!! I travel so much that I’ve been wanting a fashionable, yet practical travel bag that can fit my Mac, my Kindle and all the other travel necessities, but without the bulk. It’s perfect – I don’t think I’ve ever been so in love with an object.
Friday afternoon the beers were cracked at 5:01 pm and the drinks didn’t stop flowing until the wee hours of the next morning That night I went out with all three of my roommates for the first time in months and had such a wonderful time. We always have the best time when we’re altogether, although the four of us don’t go out together nearly as much as we should.
And no, despite his boy-ish charm, the guy to my right is not 12 years old. That’s our co-worker Corey and he’s actually 24. I know.
There’s not much to say about Saturday as I really didn’t do anything besides watch Season 2 and 3 of The Hills on Netflix – aka swoon over Brody Jenner and curse at that backstabbing hoe fo sho Heidi. Team Lauren all the way!
I love going to bed early on a weekend night, because I’m always so productive the next day. Sunday I hit the gym with Grundy bright and early. It was a rough workout, especially after that 2:00 am Chinese food Friday night but I felt so great when I was done!
Living in Boston, there was only one thing on everyone’s mind last night – The Patriots game! Although I’m forever a diehard Steelers fan, I decided to root for the Patriots mainly because I have always hated the Ravens. Unfortunately my cheering didn’t help the Pats out, but at least I had some good beer, good pizza, and good friends
Not to mention some damn good cookies.
They may not look like much, but they were AWESOME. Don’t worry my friends, the recipe is coming soon!
Although most of you probably have this Monday off to relax and enjoy time with your family and friends, I’m heading into the office. We have the day off of work but since I really have nothing better to do I figured I’d head into the office to catch up on some things I’ve been falling behind on. (<— I just re-read that and I sound like such a loser. Oh well.)
Hope you guys have a great day, see you tomorrow!
Let’s Talk – What are your plans for MLK day? Who are you rooting for in the Superbowl?
I'm a twenty something with restless feet and a wanderlust filled heart. I currently live in Boston, but that doesn't stop me from traveling the world. I'm a lover of spontaneity, smiling, adventure, and beer. Follow along on my journey on living a life full of laughter. 
I know exactly how you feel with your whole Boston situation. I always wanted to live in Philadelphia and went to the Art Institute there for my Freshman year. I had everything that I wanted.. a city that I loved, best friends, I was so happy. But I was in such a contradiction because I ended up not loving the Art Institute… which was basically the whole reason that I was there. And, I missed my boyfriend, who lived four hours away in State College. But I did what I had to do… left Philadelphia, and transferred to West Chester, which is only 30 min away from the city. I hated leaving Center City and my friends, but it was a better decision, and I ended up really liking West Chester. Now I live with my boyfriend so that got better after a four year long distance relationship.
But anyway, sorry for the long comment! haha. I just wanted to let you know. I hope that you can be completely happy, because I know how difficult it is to know if you’re making the right decisions of not. I’ve never been in Boston, but I’m sure it’s pretty cool! Good luck!
Thanks so much for the comment! I understand your feelings exactly. Although there’s nothing I don’t like about living here, I just miss things about Florida even more. I think I’m just in a funk and need to find a way to snap myself out of it!
Just find something to take your mind off of things when you get bummed out and focus on what makes you happy.
I have found myself feeling the exact same way! Being back in Morgantown finishing out my graduate degree, is full of contradictions for me: it is comfortable,but at the same time lonely. most of my best friends didnt return for grad school. However, as I begin the job search and get SO excited about moving to a new city (hopefully) i worry that these feelings of “loneliness” will follow me. But I’ve come to realize, I am the one in control of these feelings – and I’m making it a point to not let them get the best of me. It’s okay to be homesick and miss family & friends, but I need to enjoy the moment – for it is all part of the bigger picture! I hope you work through this feelings & find the change & needed environment you are striving for!
I love the way you put that, “I am the one in control of these feelings”. I need to remind myself of this because I honestly am making myself homesick and am feeling sorry for myself when there’s no reason to! I have so many awesome things going on that I’m just focusing on the few negatives instead of focusing on the many positives! I need to enjoy the moment – thanks for reminding me Em!
My plans for MLK day since I was told to take PTO are to clean, do laundry, work on my blog, and relax.
I was so happy when the Ravens won last night! I am not a fan of Brady & the Patriots. And I’m going to keep rooting for the Ravens in the Superbowl because I am not a fan of the 49ers (maybe because they beat the Packers lol). Now if the Falcons had beat the 49ers I could go either way with who to root for in the Superbowl but that didn’t happen so my choice has been made.
You may have been happy about the Ravens, but no one up here was!
My plans for MLK day are roasting veggies, some laundry, oh and work. Holidays ain’t anything in the retail world! Hate to say it but I was glad the Ravens won last night! I’m not a fan of Brady or Belichilk!!
I’m not really a fan of either anyways, so no hard feelings
I am so familiar with that longing for change feeling. It’s something that struck me back in college and hasn’t left since. 2012 was a tough year for me and with the fresh new arrival of 2013 I’m ready to step out of my comfort zone and embrace change! It’s terrifying…absolutely terrifying…but sometimes you just gotta take that leap of fate! Good luck, I’m sure you’ll figure out what you need
Thanks so much Irina! It’s always nice knowing that I’m not alone with the feelings I have. I’m craving change, but I need to focus on the great things I have going on now and enjoy the moment
Your cookies look yummo! I won’t bother making fun of you for working on an off day because that probably means you actually really enjoy your job! I have been loving getting to bed early on the weekends (booze hiatus = I get sleepy when I try to go out) so go you for taking advantage of it!
Hahaha good point. I must really enjoy my job if I’m willing to skip lazing around on a day off to go into the office! P.S. I wanted to tell you that I tried to eat 80% Paleo this morning for breakfast! Still completely full and satisfied 3 hours later
I’m so sorry to hear about your emotions and not knowing what’s next for you. Just remember that things will happen the way they are suppose too. God has a plan for every.one.of.us, and will only guide you in the right direction. Keep faith hunnie
I always love comments from you, because you tend to shine light on the bigger picture and open my eyes. You’re the best, love!