Let’s go back to the beginning. I started this blog a little over four years ago. I was about to enter my senior year of college and wanted to remember every moment of it. What better way to do that then to make a bucket list with my friends and document completing it? Unfortunately, a large majority of the bucket list included doing something embarrassing, illegal, or made me sound like a borderline alcoholic.
Over the years, my blog has been many things. A bucket list that documented my senior year, a food journal to document my weight loss and workouts, and now a sarcastic little corner of the internet where I write about the things I love: travel and twenty-something life.
Back in college, I would read Healthy Living blogs daily. As I’ve grown as a blogger, I realized that the blogs I used to read religiously no longer hold any appeal to me. In fact, I find myself deleting them from my reader daily. Some of them I’ve grown out of, some of them I find to be dull and boring, some of them I have a hard time finding a post with actual content (as opposed to sponsored content), and some are just downright disordered.
When I say I’m sick of healthy living blogs, I want to be clear that I’m talking to the disordered bloggers taking advantage of their readership. I’m talking to the bloggers who claim to portray a healthy lifestyle, yet have no idea what the term “healthy balance” truly means. The bloggers who I have yet to see eat a bowl of spaghetti for dinner instead of spaghetti squash (gasp!) or actually drink a 6 pack of beer rather than taking a picture of it.
I’m talking to the “healthy living” bloggers who have an obsession with food and fitness to the point where it’s unhealthy, if not downright dangerous. I’m talking to the bloggers who have turned their passion into a job, and choosing to produce posts in quantity over quality. The ones where I can hardly drag myself through their 300 words on why they chose to eat eggs instead of a smoothie for breakfast. The ones who make me blurt out loud: why the fuck am I reading this?
I’m talking to the “healthy living” bloggers who claim they are recovered, but still restrict their intake and continue to be enabled by their readers. The ones who actually made me feel bad about myself for having eggs WITH THE YOLK for breakfast. I’m talking to the bloggers who put a pit in my stomach after I finish reading yet another disordered WIAW post. I’m talking to the “healthy living” bloggers that have no idea that they’re still sick, and have no regard for the fact that they’re influencing others in a negative way. The ones that use their platform to preach disordered habits which inevitably hurt others.
I’m sick of it.
Who are they to decide what is healthy when they clearly can’t even manage a healthy balance for themselves?
To me, healthy is not obsessing over calorie intake or calories burned. It’s mindlessly eating without worrying what you’re putting in your mouth. Healthy is ordering that extra glass of wine and shoving those cheesy fries in your mouth because, DAMN, they taste good.
Healthy is skipping the gym. Not because you “need a rest day” one day a week otherwise your readers will start calling you out in comments, but because you would rather lay in bed and watch Season 2 of Orange is the New Black instead of dragging your ass to the elliptical.
Healthy living is pushing yourself to run a mile, not because you want to lose weight or burn off calories from earlier that day, but because you want to be healthy. Your body is a temple and you want to treat it that way.
Healthy is Diet Coke and McDonalds breakfast sandwiches because MY GOD that shit is good.
Healthy living is not needing justification from others. You don’t need to take selfies at the gym, or shirtless photos of your abs. You don’t have to Instagram every photo of your meal to prove that you had dessert. You already know you have a healthy balance – you don’t have to justify it to others.
Healthy is being happy in your own skin.
Healthy living is accepting the parts that you may not love about yourself. Healthy is not letting what you don’t love about yourself affect your life, it’s embracing it and knowing that your worth is not what’s on the outside, but what’s on the inside.